Tuesday, August 12, 2003

fuck the world and all the people in it
sorry, im just in a pised off and very annoyed mood right now. Im sorry to those people who i just fucked up their day...and possibly week, or their life, as usual. Im so fuckin annoyed and confused right now. What the fuck is happening in the world, and what the fuck has been going through his head the past 5 weeks or so? Ahhhh...fuck you asshole, im so sick of your shit, but what makes me sick the most is the power you have over me, but u dont even realize it (or maybe you do). You have the power to make me happy, or severly depressed, sometimes both at the same time. Do you even really care, or am i just something to amuse you for awhile, until something better comes along? Whatever, its not like i can do anything. Have your way with me, its you that controls me: my actions, my emotions...my life. I have no say anymore, i leave it all up to you...
~me~ at 10:42 PM

Monday, August 11, 2003

this is going to be long blog about my weekend, so if yur not in the mood, dont say that i didnt warn you. On Friday, Dray and her people came to pick me up at about 9:15. We got to Chula Vista at about 12:45ish, and just sat and chilled con su familia. I met Lynda and Patty, her two cousins who are our age. We were waiting for their mom to come home cuz she went dancing. Her tia Patty came home at about 1:30, and we went to go get some Tacos from Humberto's Taco Shop where Lyndas friend worked. There were 2 black guys there, who were high, and we were joking around with them. We ate at the house, and then Lynda's tio came home at about 2, so he let Lynda take his Geo out. LOFL. He only let us take it because i had my license, though that really wouldnt have mattered since it was stick. Dray drove it for awhile, then Lynda took it around town. We were like speeding through these crazy old streets and everything. The Geo was all rattling and stuff, as the 5 of us were squeezed in there. There are a lot of hills and stuff, so it makes it hard on a stickshift car. We burned out in front of this one church, and you could smeel the rubber from the tires. Like 30 mins later, we started to smell rubber again, but we couldnt figure out what was wrong with the car. We stopped a couple of times, but nothing. At a 7-11, a black guy told us that we were burning up the clutch, and to just go home because we shouldnt be out at 3 am. When we got back, me and Dray tried on some outfits for the quince the next day, and she was gunna wear this pretty blue fitted dress with these crazy chanclas with glass-like heels. I had a black shimmery skirt, and we couldnt settle on a top. We got to sleep like at 5:30 and woke up at 9:30. (Im proud cuz this house was like...in the ghetto. We squeezed 14 people in the 3 bedroom house, y con las cucarachas =P) Lynda had made us an awesome Mexican breakfast, and we went to the mall around 3. I bought a pretty turqouise shirt, and Lynda got her nails done. After some drama concerning a guy sitting in his car taking pics of where we were, we got home at about 4, and when we got out of the car, there were 2 black guys across the street. They saw Dray, and one of them was like "Hey, can ya holla at me?!?!" and Dray goes "HOLLA!!!!" then they tried to get her number, and were askin her to come over to them. It was hilarious. We got ready and she put on her skanky blue dress (=P JK) and we were chillen outside waiting for our rides, but the guys were still outside, the same one was waving at Dray to get her attention. She ignored him. We got to the quince at about 8, cuz it was in Tijuana. IT WAS SOOOOO MUCH FUN. mmmm...got to dance with some hot guys too. Man, the Mexican in me totally came out. We drank a little bit, margaritas and Tecate (ewww!). After awhile i was sick from the diff drinks and the food and the dancing so i chilled outside for a bit. Lynda introduced me to Javier, LOFL, who was so fucked up. He put his arm around me shoulders, and told me that Lynda told him that i had a license, and he was askin me if i could drive us to the club, Mystere, on Ave Revolucion. I told him i couldnt drive stick, and he was pretending to be all shocked and disappointed. LOFL. He kept askin me how old i was, and telling me that i was lying. LOL.

Javi: *slurring* Id drive myself, ya know, but im fucked up
Me: Yeah, i can tell
Javi: Tell what??
Me: That youre fucked up
Javi: What?! Im not fucked up! Thats fucked up! I aint fucked up...im jus' faded...im just chillin
Me: oh...okay. lol.

So after 10 mins of that, Dray came out. He kept tellng me i was cute and stuff, but not hitting on me. He was cool. He started to talk to Dray, and he had us laughing so hard. He kept forgetting our names, and kept telling us the same thing. He made fun of Andrea some. OMG. then one of Dray's little boy cousins came out with a whole bunch of her little girl cousins, and they were laughing at Javier with us. Then outta nowhwere he bust out!

Boy: You are stupid!
Javi: Youre to young.
Boy: *tugging on shirt and all up in Javis face* What?!?! Im a P-I-M-P. I got the Magic Stick, and the dick!!!!

Then he just left. We laughed so fucking hard. Socorro (drays mom) was letting us go clubbin at Ave Revolucion, pero she saw how drunk Javi was, and told us that she didnt want us to go. The quince ended at 3, and we left at 3:30. We stopped off and got some tacos, and got home at about 4. LOL. Me and Dray were washing our face in the bathroom, y las cucarachas were all over, so she got a soap bottle and started to beat this single one. it was like, twitching on the floor, it was freakin hilarious. We got to sleep at 4:30 and woke up at 12:30. We layed around for most of the day, slept some, and Drays mom, sister, tia, and little cousin Tata all went Jet-Skiing. We were left with baby Natalye, so Lynda, me, and dray went to Jack in the Crack and came back. Then we all squeezed in the Geo again and went to the church for a fiesta, but this time we had Lupita and Patty with us. We saw David (this one hot guy Dray was dancing with) and we ate and left. After all this drama, and Eddy stalking us (Drays cousin) LOL, we hit the road at about 10:15. On the way back home, Patty called cuz David was at her house, and he wanted to talk to Dray. She gave him her phone number. WoOoO. I got home at 1, and hit the sack right away. I hope i no bring cucarachas with me. =/

Today i went to the school to get my schedule changed, and then with Assmar to Ventura to apply at Joes Crab Shack. We didnt and got some Jamba Juice. Then he dropped me back pff at the school to get my car, and i came home for a bit. Then i picked up Dray and we went to Edwins (whose birthday was yesterday) to drop off his towel i borrowed forever ago. then we went to In-n-Out and then Borders. I saw Coey and Michael for a split second. Hey Corey, Dray says "nice eyes". We looked at some Kama-sutra books and then went and got Blizzards from DQ. y ahora, estoy muy consada.
~me~ at 9:03 PM